Little bit anxious

I have two days to go till my exam and I am more than a little stressed.

I was a bit silly and naive to think I could do this on my own. There are gaps in the syllabus, w hich I have not covered.

These gaps do not constitute a big part of the marks, but with a music exam, unlike written exams, you can’t just decide which bits you will fill in and which you’ll skip.

So I have no choice but to humiliate myself with the oral part of the exam. Particularly the sight-singing, where you get a page of sheet music put in front of you which you have to sing. Oh my word, I don’t know if I’m up for it.

My 4 pieces, on the other hand, are not sounding too shabby. The scales are so-so at this stage.

Can’t face another day of practising scales, however. I’m about to crack, scales are running through my head constantly.

I can’t remember ever feeling this anxious about an exam before. It is probably because it is going to be one on one with the examiner, no place to hide.

Am seriously considering not taking the exam now*. Hope I have gotten over it by tomorrow.

*Not because I’m scared or anything (lie) but because I’m nowhere near ready.