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Six years of MS.

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Today is somewhat of an anniversary for me. But don’t bring out the champagne just yet. Six years ago today, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. The big MS. So I thought I’d do a little reflecting today, on what the past six years have meant to me.

I’m not that good at psycho-analizing things like this. I can’t compile an easy-to-read list on how this has changed me. How it has made me a better person, because I don’t think it has. I wasn’t a bad person before the MS, although I did have some growing up to do still. I think inside I am exactly the same person that I would have been if I hadn’t had this challenge in my life. I don’t buy into the belief that having to battle makes us a better/ nicer/ whatever person. Also, I don’t think it can make us stronger, but it might surprise us by revealing the strength we do have, that we didn’t realise we possessed.

Having a chronic disease may test our Faith, but in doing so, much can be revealed that we didn’t believe before. It makes us humble enough to ask, and be overwhelmed with gratitude when we receive.

MS has shown me who my friends are. In fact, I am lucky enough that all my friends proved to be true friends. How cool is that? In addition, MS has given me new friends, that have enriched my life. I would never have known them otherwise.

Everyone says that without your health you have nothing. Not true. Life may not be a picnic or a walk in the park, but there is still joy to be had in every moment, if we but reach out to take it.

Probably the one thing that MS has added to my life, is the revelation of how extremely important the little things are. It has made me appreciate, on a level that I never would have thought possible, the human body and all the miraculous things it is capable of. MS took a lot away from me, but gave some of it back, and for those seemingly insignificant things I am so grateful. I hope it gets around to returning some of the other things it has borrowed though…

MS tested my husband and I’s love for each other. We passed with flying colours, and are close to one other on a level that we probably wouldn’t have otherwise been. He has been my rock, through sickness and in health, just like he promised.

All four my parents have supported me so completely, be it with emotional support, financial or little admin things, and have shown me such love that I can never pay it back. And all my siblings (blood and in-laws) too. Although I didn’t need MS to prove that to me.

The past six years have taken me from outright denial to anger to disbelief (a bit different from denial :-), to eventual acceptance. Not capitulation, not relinquishing determination, but a sense of peace. I didn’t ask for this, and I can only try my best.

To everyone who has shared my journey in some way over the past six years, Thank You for making my road easier.

Written by Maggie

October 17, 2007 at 4:50 pm

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  1. Oh Maggie you are my inspiration girl. I can learn from your outlook on life. I can’t believe it is 6 years it feels like yesterday.

    Thanks for being a light in our lives. We love you very much

    Mom Archer

    Marié

    October 17, 2007 at 6:25 pm

  2. Dear Maggie reading this exposé on your life’s journey makes me feel ever so humble. I have had the pleasure of meeting you and Michael and I found your unselfish and amazing approach to life inspirational. My mind often goes back to my visit to Sth Africa when we sat around Mariés table and you played the harmonica for me. Tears well in my eyes and my heart is so full..I could not believe your recital finished with a fantastic rendition of Waltzing Matilda.
    Mothers Day you and Mike arrived to visit with Marié and you included me in the day with a pressie for us both..
    Maggie your generosity is abounding..you are a very special young lady…you and Mike hold a very special place in my heart. Love Aunty Kezzie

    Kezzie

    October 17, 2007 at 7:04 pm

  3. Let’s look at that half full glass …. 6 years and you are as full as piss and vinegar as the day you started. Here is too another 60 years of laughing, crying, kicking, screaming and generally raising cane.

    mdmhvonpa

    October 17, 2007 at 7:51 pm

  4. Ag you see…there I go. Tears tears tears and that right here at the office. I know I have said this before but it’s a fact and nothing can change that. You are such a strong person. A hero in many ways. I love you

    Melany aka Supermom

    October 18, 2007 at 7:56 am


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