Archive for December 2013
Well, here we are, nearly finished with the first trimester, you and I.
We don’t know yet if you are a boy or a girl. But daddy and I have had a boy name and girl name picked out since just after we got married, twelve years ago. If you are a girl, you will be Vivian. And if you are a boy, your name will be Luke.
We can’t stop talking about you. You are in just about every conversation that we have. Daddy has downloaded an app on his iPad showing how you are developing from week to week.
When it was still at 7 – 8 weeks, you didn’t have arms or legs yet, and ouma kindly said that you looked like a little baby dolphin. So for a while, we called you “fluffy little dolphin”. Daddy added the fluffy part and I laughed and said I didn’t think you were all that fluffy, but the name stuck.
Now, you are starting to look like a little person, and are all of 6cm long. I love to think of you, so tiny but so developed already. Our little miracle.
Little one, I was planning to try for a baby sometime in the new year. I was planning to go off my medicine so it would be a bit safer for you. But I guess I was thinking of you too much and you decided it was time to come along already.
Maybe it is for the best. maybe I needed to be on my medicine just a little bit longer so that I could be healthy enough to carry you for nine months without problems. I have prayed that you will be protected, and healthy and beautiful and I believe that the Lord will answer my prayers. He has blessed us with you and I know that He loves you even more than daddy and I already do, and will not let any harm come to you.
Can I say that I think you are a little girl? Just some mommy’s intuition. I guess we will know soon enough. Daddy and I don’t mind either way. We are so excited for your arrival. Daddy says time is passing too slowly for him. I will treasure the remaining six months, having you close and safe inside me. I still have a lot of getting ready to do, so things are nice and organised when you get home, and you and I can spend all our time getting to know each other in comfort.
Happy growing, my little love.
I have enjoyed it.
Never more so than right now..
I never thought pregnancy would be like this. For one, I pretty much assumed I would have morning sickness. It seems that I am of the lucky 25% that doesn’t get it. Yay. The closest I have come is a feeling of my stomache being vaguely unsettled when I haven’t eaten in a long time. Usually right before lunch. It disappears as soon as I have the first bite to eat. But even that has disappeared completely. Excuse the glee 🙂
I have had days when I have felt really tired and had to go and have a lie down. And I’ve been going to bed earlier than usual. That seems to be passing too though.
What else? My breasts look amazing! 🙂 I’ve been told it’s kinda downhill from here, what with the stretch marks and the breast-feeding taking its toll, so I am enjoying it while it lasts. It’s all I can do not to take a photo of the girls and put it on facebook, hahaha. (I would never do that!)
I pee on an extremely regular basis, but not more so than before. MS bladder is worse than pregnancy bladder any day of the week, and it has conditioned me. If I go anywhere, I know exactly where the toilets are, that is my life and I am used to it. If anything, I think my bladder is better than it was before. I don’t neccessarily expect that to last, but my point is that it is not a symptom I have noticed as of yet.
Speaking of my MS, it is deliciously absent at present. This is pretty much to be expected during pregnancy, but is not a given. When I first found out I was pregnant, I had some stress to deal with from various sources, and I was experiencing some old MS symptoms. I’ve eased into things now though, and am enjoying this most precious time in our lives, and the symptoms are gone. I will do what it takes to keep it that way.
I will go for my first doctor/ gynae appointment and scan early in January. At least then we will have an idea of my due date! I was naughty not to keep track of things properly, but as I mentioned before, my cycle has been rather irregular and I just can’t remember when it last was. I do recall that I had a sort of double period, which in retrospect was probably an implantation thing. Oops. 🙂
Michael and I are terribly excited! He is having a very difficult time at work, but is still downloading pregnancy apps onto his iPad. We have a great one called In the Womb (or Life in the Womb) and it shows what baby looks like week by week. But in 3D, in exquisite detail. Also shows exactly what is developing at any given time.
He is watching pregnancy programs on tv with me (or should I say, I am watching them with him!) 🙂 He is so involved; I love it! He says time is standing still, and these are going to be the longest months of his life 🙂
I, for one, am glad I still have plenty of time. I have SO much to do. More on that later, but it’s quite entrepreneural 😉
I have been looking forward to having a baby since I was about 12. That is the one thing I resented most about MS, that it had made planning for a baby almost impossible. I think it has taken till now for me to be healthy enough to carry the baby (without it being a real, real battle).
I always had it in my head that I would have my first baby at 34. A bit of a cut off time in my head. Yikes, and it was getting closer. I had these plans to get off the MS meds and do a pre-conception diet and exercise regime. Hah! In the end, I was chicken to quit the meds on 29 October (my last neuro appointment) like I had planned. A pity I didn’t, because unbeknownst to me, I was already pregnant at the time. I was just scared that I would go off the meds, it would take longer than planned to conceive, and then I would start relapsing, having to treat with cortisone, etc. etc. Somewhere along the line, it was all taken out of my hands. I am so glad and so excited and thrilled and ecstatic and living my dream. I refuse to be negative over any aspect of this miracle!
It has taken some getting used to, not taking my MS meds every morning. A bit scary, that. Luckily, I have been able to replace it with my prenatal vitamins. I have not skipped one day since I found out 🙂 I could be eating better though 😦 I am on a pretty carb-based diet at the moment. I need to eat more fresh stuff, more fruits, more veggies! At least I’ve cut out 90% of sugary foods, which is very unlike me. They just don’t go down as well as they used to. Baby doesn’t seem to like it when I eat sweets. I’ve lost my appetite for them, which is great. Not much nutritional value, and does more harm than good.
I’ll probably update again after my first scan. Till then, have a very Merry Christmas and a lovely new year, to everyone who reads this 🙂
It has been way too long. So many blog posts floating around in my head, but none of them had the impetus needed for me to kick-start the old blog again. Until now, that is.
Biggest, most surprising news I have ever shared….
Michael and I are expecting a baby, sometime during Winter 2014.
Not the best photo, but those two lines are undeniable 🙂
That was the 20th of November, when I got it into my head to take a home pregnany test. After the third positive one, it began to sink in. (I whatsapped Michael this photo after doing the first one, and he was pretty shocked at work, lol)
The next day, I went for the official blood test, which confirmed that yes, I was pregnant, and in fact, 7-8 weeks.
I couldn’t resist going for another blood test a week later, and then it was adjusted to 6-7 weeks, which was much more believable and realistic to me. The doc apparently got it wrong with the first test.
The lab sister had a look at the results of the first test and immediately said that the levels were at 5-6 weeks then, so it all adds up.
Which means I am now 7-8 weeks. Yay.
I took my last Gilenya capsule the day of the home test (20 November).
For this reason, I barely slept the night after the blood test confirmed everything. I was not supposed to get pregnant while on the Gilenya trials! I was supposed to be on two forms of contraceptives (not even close, heehee).
I was so worried.
But the next day,my friend in the USA, Jeri, put my mind at rest. She has been on the trials as long as I have, and is now involved with Novartis’ talks that she gives to MS patients considering their drug choices. She told me she has heard plenty of anecdotal stories from doctors of women who had babies after being exposed to Gilenya at some point and they and their babies were fine! I also phoned my neurologist, who is the trial co-ordinator for Novartis in SA and he said the same thing. No adverse events reported. Babies were fine!
Disclaimer: This is by no means a go ahead for women on Gilenya who wish to fall pregnant. You need to discuss it with your doctor first! Don’t be a maverick, like me.
I have chosen to believe that baby will be fine and healthy. And luckily I did stop the meds at 5-6 weeks! It could have taken me a lot longer for the penny to drop, as I have had precious little pregnancy symptoms, and my cycle has not been regular lately. (Which has a fair amount to do with how it came about that I am pregnant, I think).
Anyway, I think this is long enough for my first blog post in such a long time.
Let me just end off by saying that we are both absolutely thrilled, and can’t wait for this next chapter in our lives 🙂